I am not where I belong

I have learned a lot over the past 20 years. Computers are cool to a certian extent. I have both a Bachelor’s and a Master’s of IT. 11 years ago, I would proudly tell people that I was an IT professional. Today though, I am miserable. I do not belong in my place of employment. I have not gotten a promotion or pay raise for the longest time, but that’s not what bothers me the most about my current position. I know I was meant for more than this. I have a life outside of the government. I have a son to raise and a dog to train for God’s work. Not only is it frustrating not having enough income, (See Still moving forward despite setbacks), but it is also frustrating not having enough time for those things that matter most. I have been praying to God for a new life while doing what I can in my power to get there. My passion is in Social Work. My passion is for the mentally ill and those with other mental disabilities. I belong in the community. I need to be engaged with others and the others with me. I need to be in full time ministry doing God’s work and influencing others for Jesus Christ. What am I doing here? I feel like stepping into a counseling, social work, social advocate, psychologist, or therapist’s position right now, but that is not an option. I am looking for Christian Universities where I can get a Master in Social Work on Line. I don’t want to just live for the next day off so I can be with my dog or serve others. I want serving others with compassion to be my daily life. I am still figuring out through prayer and soul searching how to get there, but alas, I don’t get enough time off or rest to do that, so I feel stuck. I feel like a wage slave getting up at 4:00 in the morning just to be bored stiff all day when there’s lots to be done at home. That’s no way to live. I am trying to work as unto the Lord and to have a better attitude. I chose the IT profession because I thought it would be fun. While I am no longer in an IT position per se, the work I do is still related to IT. God help me! I am on the verge of losing my sanity! I know God has a plan for me. I know He is up to something! I can’t take it anymore! This is a cry for help. I know people out there need me and my talents! It’s just a matter of finding them! If any of you have been in my situation, and have any ideas as to the steps I need to take to be able to move on, feel free to share.

About journeywithmercy

I am seeking a meaningful life in Jesus Christ. I am not sure exactly what that means, but I am on a journey to find out. I seek a most amazing way beyond my wildest dreams to fulfill my calling, purpose and destiny while enjoying beauty, art, culture, nature and science the whole way thorugh.
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