I feel strongly led by God to do Heaven’s bidding, making His Kingdom my business. However, I do not feel as though I have the time and resources to take the steps that I believe are necessary for a successful ministry. I know God is about to put me into a new line of work. I can feel it. Recently when I was still in God’s presence on two separate occasions, I heard God say “You’ve done enough!” and “Wait on Me.” I trust God with all of my hope that He will keep His promises and better my life so that my circumstances are ideal to go into full time ministry. I will never give up hope. I put faith in the promises of God’s Word, no matter how much it might appear as though we are failing. As of recently, my position was moved even 45 minutes further from my home, but with work from home privileges, which I love and really help, but on the days that I commute into this office 1 hr and 45 minutes going in an 2-3 hours (no, that is not a typo) coming home. Last night’s commute was especially terrible. Everything that could have possibly delayed my commute happened.
I have dreams of being a world changer traveling around the world for both ministry and pleasure, I will admit. I long and hunger to learn, which means exploring. I was made with exploration etched into my blood, yet due to my limited resources, I am not able to travel as I’d like to. I want to learn about the people I will be serving. I promised God that if He blesses me with increased privileges, I will not use them on selfish lusts. James 4:3
I also plan on having a journey with another Golden Retriever someday, but now is not the time. After all, my services with Mercy are greatly needed. The vast majority just doesn’t know that yet.
I promise God that if He gives me a chance to do more meaningful, important work, that I would not disappoint. I promised that if He gave me an increase, that I would invest in other people’s lives, giving them the chances that the other employers will not give them. (or me) I’m serious! I have vowed and vowed and promised God my life! That’s how desperate I am to have a most meaningful, important mission and purpose! I can’t go on like this! I don’t mean to show my weakness, but I am human just like everybody else. I cannot afford to fail. My future mission is too important for my life to not get better or for me to go under financially! I will keep hope alive, no matter what happens though. Pray for me. There is so much on the line and at stake.