I so love Golden Retrievers in case it was not obviously already. Even though I don’t show my dog, it is interesting to watch other Goldens in the ring. I subscribe to Golden Retriever News and I love the ads in those magazines. I think about how I would absolutely love to get to know other Golden Retriever enthusiasts better. I long to connect with Golden people better and be accepted and approved by them as well as get help from them. I also would like people in the inner Golden Circle especially those who produce beautiful healthy sound Goldens to be gracious and merciful towards the less experienced Golden Retriever owners and lovers. I tend to make more social mistakes than most people, and it often bites me in the butt later. I do still have alot to learn. When I ask questions out of curiousity, they often come across as maliciously rude to others. I do see the world a little bit differently and notice the types of details that people don’t notice or at least don’t think I have the right to notice. I have Pervasive Developmental Disorder, which causes me to have unintentionally break social rules since it means I might be on the autism spectrum.

Unfortunately, some people who are at the top of their game are also self-righteous as their super performance inflates their ego and puffs them up, so they are therefore less than gracious towards the less experienced who might also lack supportive connections that they themselves do not lack. When someone commits a social faux pass, even when their hearts are right, some of the inner circle breeders or inner circle members of any group might take it the wrong way, and fault you for something greater than you intended. God looks at the heart, while some elitists look at appearance and behavior. If you mess up before some people know you for who you really are, they can be very critical, fault finding, and judgmental. I choose to educate people including people in high places about having more patience and grace towards those who are less versed and less experienced about what a life of prestige and privilege is like. As I try to understand the world of Golden Retrievers, I ask that people with more experience in life than I do to bear with me, support me and accept me for who I am and have patience and grace towards me when I stumble in my conduct. I am still learning.