I long so much to offer to others help that they really need. Meeting needs, comforting the hurting, soothing the troubled, helping others find strength. In other words, I long to be an instrument of God’s healing, (with Mercy at my side) impacting people’s lives for the better. If I don’t impact people’s lives for the better in my efforts to serve in love, how else will the world see Jesus in me? Being the hands and feet of Christ, touching those people He would touch. I want to touch lives in a way that will be of upmost importance, so that God may be glorified. I am still a servant in training. I am trying to do what’s right. I am trying to be kind to others. I am trying to serve others. I am trying to give to others. I want to use my talents, gifts, skills, kindness, compassion, mercy and grace to give others hope as well to show others how to imitate Christ. I am not looking for recognition, however, I want to see the looks of gratitude, relief, hope, comfort, tears of joy, hugs, celebration etc. from people as evidence that their lives were touched by Christ through me. My biggest deepest longing is to impact the world in a real way. It is what God wired into me. I have a hole in my heart filled with a tender longing to offer love, kindness, and help in a way that will really meet the needs of others. My dog Mercy is still in training, I am still a government employee, I still struggle with social skills, and I still struggle with low self-esteem. Making a difference in the lives of those who could really use what I have to offer is what I yearn for the most. My need to be needed but still yet not seeing how I’ve made an impact hurts. I have passion and fire in my belly for serving, for one thing by comforting others. I may not be there yet, but I am on the way. May the joy of the Lord be my strength. Prayers would be appreciated right now. I am struggling with the feeling that what I have to offer does not matter. But with God’s grace, I will overcome! I can do all things in Christ who strengthens me.